I write for myself. I write to express the thoughts that seem to run through my head on a consistent basis. I just have not had the time, or rather the energy to actually sit down and get the shit done. Hence, a 5 month delay. It's always funny to come back after such long blogging hiatus because more often than not all the things that I mention or set out to do, usually gets done. Or I can reflect on my actions and 1- pat myself on the back for doing such a good job as well as 2- thank God. You be lookin' out for da kid!
Well, since my last entry I have trained for and completed my first half marathon, which for the record wasn't too shabby. I did pretty well actually finishing in 1:44:32. I have my second half, the Brooklyn Half next week so needless to say, I am still running consistently and getting stronger day by day. I re-read one of my blogs after Lou passed saying that I wanted to run one of these many races benefitting cancer of some kind and I did just that. Super proud of myself. I hope to do more. There is something unexplainably gratifying about training and running for a cause even when it doesn't directly affect you. I made some new friends via LLS Team in Training and I would love to sign up again if that damn fundraising minimum wasn't so daunting. At least I can say that for once in my life, I ran for a purpose.
I must say that running has become such an integral part of my life that it feels odd when I dont run. Aside from my typical Friday off. I average 5-6 runs per week with approximately 5 miles per outing. I can afford to cut back after my race next week but I really dont even see the point. I just change my clothes and go as far as my legs will carry me. It's to the point where even when I dont have the true intention of running it kind of just happens. I unconsciously change my clothes and find myself in a sports bra and shorts before I realize Im dressed to run. I dont know if thats a good or a bad thing. I was in the shower and I was just thinking about why I run. I dont have a goal anymore and I think I need to set one because now running is just whatever and routes are becoming monotonous. I need a new challenge. I attempted kick boxing and tried to have Greg teach me but with him, Id rather take the L and keep it moving. With him, it just wouldn't work out. I need to introduce calisthenics and strengthen my upper body/ core. I feel like a weakling, stamina aside.
Well, in other news on the job frontier I am gainfully employed. A little over two months office managing at a structural engineering firm. Real tiny, quiet but pleasant. Some things I find idiotic and archaic but whatever. I am just glad that it is something new. I definitely needed the change. At least now I am adjusted although there are still some things I need to learn. Replacing someone who was there for 12 years... not the business.
Regarding relationships and dating... yeah... If I could use one word to describe my relationships with men the past few months it would be unrequited, on my part that is. People show me interest and I'm just here like "meh." People get boring and I just cant be bothered. Half the time they just want to sleep with me and I am absolutely not here for that. How about you learn what my favorite color is first? Funnily enough I find myself in a situationship. Parties of course will never be mentioned but this situationship is interesting to say the least. It's a grey area between relationship and basic friendship. I enjoy it for what it is I just hope that my Aquarian denial isnt getting the best of me. On the other hand, I have been talking to someone new who seems to have potential but let's see where that goes.
In other news mas o menos important
- started a bad habit of buying Js I like... i feel like such a coon
- many summer activities planned and i. am. excited!
- Sierra passed the bar. My best friend is an attorney.. Bourgie ass esquire
- Annie is doing a great job of losing weight.. she's gonna be so svelte by 2014!
- Ive taken to loosely training my friends on distance running
- Wearing contacts after a 7 year hiatus .. and new frames =)
Yeahhhhhh.. I think that's about it. I guess I will return here again in a few months.. HA. To whoever read this, be well
~Danni