Day 20

Here I sit in the office. On 2.5 hours of sleep. I find that that doesn't quite qualify as sleep but more so a nap. Anyway, here I am. I figure I may as well do today's challenge while i am relatively coherent.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.

Anyone who knows me knows how much I love Ancient Egypt and things of, near, or relating to it. I think their history(that which is documented) is so rich (literally and figuratively). From an engineering / architectural standpoint I have an even deeper desire to visit.

Yo I need a nap. Like now. Damn you responsibilities! *Shakes fist*

Lost sleep was well worth it =)

Day 19

I frown upon myself. I haven't blogged in days. A bit too much going on in my life. Work. Friends. BIRTHDAY *Dancing smiley* But here I am, with a new entry. Yay! Along with a sore throat. Boo -__-


Day 19 - A picture of when you were little


Look at me!!! I look the same. Taller. Glasses. WAY more hair. LOL

Day 18

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

How do you take a picture of an insecurity? For me, I would have to say that it would be fear of inadequacy or constant comparison for lack of a better phrase. I only have an iPhone Blackberry up because those are constantly up for comparison. Funnily enough I own a BB, have an iPod touch so i see the desire in having an iPhone, but heavily leaning towards getting an android phone. I digress as usual...

Sometimes I feel like I am not good enough. I'm not attractive enough for men. Not smart enough to get those grades. Not good enough for this job. Not prepared enough to (insert activity.) Just. Not. Enough.

I know that i shouldn't feel like this. It's not a constant hovering cloud of insecurity, but it comes and goes. Granted I know that all the prior things that I have listed might just prompt "WTF is wrong with you" from my friends but it is the way that I feel. And I am allowed to feel, right? I have been doing it less and less though, thankfully. I realized that some things are just beyond my control contributing to why I feel LIKE I'm not good enough. Perhaps I haven't tapped into my full potential as of yet. One day soon though...

IN OTHER NEWS.....

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE WEEK!!!! YAZZZZZZ... Cant wait. Cake.Thai.Friends.Love. <3

My sister's birthday is tomorrow. Cousin's on Tuesday. It's all about Aquarius. We Rule.

I definitely just realized that I put cake before Thai. Epic fatness.

Day17

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

POSITIVITY!!!

Focusing on the good instead of the bad. Now, I never once claimed to be the sole keeper of pessimism. Harsh realist perhaps, as well as a cynic. But pessimist? NO. Neither am I miss mary sunshine. However, I decided as mentioned in prior entries that I would be more optimistic about things. (not in those words per se but general gist). I would see the glass as half full instead of half empty. It's the law of attraction. You get what you put out. Refusing to see the bad in things allows me to stay happy and keeps more good things coming my way. yeah i've been loaning money to some unsavory negros. MEH. I had it, its not making or breaking me. Karma for them later if its not returned, but i digress. I find that it is coming back to me tenfold anyway, just because i feel good about it. I feel good about everything. Work is never exciting, but guess what? I have a job to pay those horrible bills every month. Yay? LOL. My birthday is next week Sunday (1/30) and I will be turning 25. I am looking forward to it. I dont really pay much attention to age, more so the fact that my cake is going to be all sorts of awesomeness.

Positivity goes a long way. I'm just getting started.

Day 16

Yea, so I slacked off. I was trying to do these blogs day to day but sometimes life doesn't run as smoothly as you like it. Here it is a day late.


Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

I always joke and say that I want to be like Ms. Payne when I grow up. But I'm partially serious. She is a long time friend, fellow Schuyler alum and all around wonderful person who is very inspirational. I admire her tenacity towards life. She puts 110% in all she does and is, even when she might not have the best hand dealt, still optimistic. I have her to thank most of my 2010 memories. So cheers to u AP! This entry is for u

(Photo from our weekend trip to DC 10/16/10... I wonder if you remember this pic.. LOL)

Day 15 .... and then some

This will be one helluva blog due to three things

1- Day 15 of the challenge
2- MLK Holiday
3- Personal revelation

First on the agenda: Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die. I want to run the NYC Marathon. Now, when I was in high school and I said this to my teammates, they looked at me as though i was sniffing the highest grade of crack. I ran track, btw. HS was 7 years ago. (YIKES) but the dream still exists. I told myself that I would run the marathon this year. I plan to start running in March and eventually work my way up to about 22 miles. Im thinking about a 16 week program to prepare for it. I dont care if no one wants to run with me, Im stubborn enough to go at it alone and on the other hand, millions of others running too. =). That bucket list item will be crossed off.


Second on the agenda - The MLK Holiday

Im writing this as I sit in the office. As expected, it is a slow day but I should have the decency to at least mention the Kang as Ms. Payne likes to call him. No reason to go into his bio because if you dont know about him by now, you are a lost cause. Completely lost. We have come a very long way thanks to him, and others but please know that the struggle is not over

"An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity. " - MLK

Martin Luther King, Jr. (January 15, 1929 – April 4, 1968)

Third and final on the agenda - personal revelations

January is the month that starts off the year. (DUH) Most people like to have resolutions and do things they ought or oughtn't. Damn thats a funny looking word. Anyway, I figure with the new year one should not bring the old gawbidge with them. Why spell it phonetically? Because it is really that bad. 2010 was the year that people chose to show their asses. I aint with it this time around so miss me with it. Yet and still, it ensues. Im dodging those bullets like Neo in the Matrix.

I have 4 individuals "friends" i suppose, whom I met in college, of them one is supposedly my best friend. SUPPOSEDLY. Im never invited anywhere really. If i am, Im last to know. But like everything else in the past, 2011 is no different. They kicked their bull shyt up a few notches right before 2011 to seal the deal. Recent behaviors only add insult to injury but would i say that I am mad. Nawwwwww. Im cooling because I been felt myself withdrawing from them. Ive been growing and realizing that some people arent meant to be in your life forever. Their time is over. good bye. On top of that that, Im going off of chapelle's VD skit and as quoted by Stinky"That's why... I say... Fuck it"

I have real friends. Better friends. Who wouldnt throw more shade than a tree at high noon, no clouds.

People pick their own poison in life. Happiness. Sadness. Misery. Joy. You aint killin my buzz.

No way. No how. Besides, My birthday is in 2 weeks. Quarter of a century

ITS A CELEBRATION BITCHES!!!! *rick james voice*

Day 14

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

I cant even begin to describe where I would be without my mother. Granted, I grew up in a large family with very supportive relatives. But I never had consistent father figures, so all I ever knew was my mom. Mom bought my clothes. Mom bought my shoes. Mom gave me money. Mom was my provider and caretaker. Granted, anyone can be a provider but my mom has always been a pillar of strength for me. Even in moments of weakness, she doesn't buckle. She reaffirms her stance. "And this too shall pass" she always says. Mother, full of adages that carry on into my adulthood. Adages, as well as songs she sings like

SALLLLLLLLLLLLLTFISH! NOTHING IN DI WORLD IS SWEETA DAN SALLLLLLLLLTFISH. MAN LICK DOWN MAN FI FIND IT. SALLLLLLLLLLLTFISH. IT SWEETA DAN MEAT.


Ill always love my momma. She's my favorite girl.

*DISCLAIMER: Clearly that's an older pic*

Day 13

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

JUDGE ME. I DARE YOU.

I dont care that they have been singing longer than I have been alive. I love them all. If you dont know who they are, let me inform you. They, my friends, are New Edition. One of the greatest male R&B groups of all time. These 6 men (boys at one point) Johnny Gill, Ralph Tresvant, Bobby Brown, Michael Bivins, Ricky Bell, Ronnie DeVoe, compose my favorite group evarrrrrrrr. Yes I recalled all without reference Bobby, Ralph and Johnny became solo acts and The other three formed the obvious, BellBiv DeVoe *singing* That girl is poisonnnnnnnnn *does the running man*

My favorite song of all time by them is "Can you stand the rain."
I've memorized the video for "if it isnt love"
Ralph is my favorite. I think Id seriously have his babies. lol

Day 12

Day 12 - A picture of something you love


Music. My love is music. I don't write. I don't compose. I don't sing. I don't rap. But I still love music. R&B preferably. Hip- hop. Both old school mostly. Dancehall. Soca. Alternative. Punk.Rock. A dash of classical and a pinch of country for diversity. One thing you will never catch me without? My iPod. Why? This chica has got to listen to her music. Especially....


The Love Below. I run this album into the GROUND. Playing it right now =)

Day 11

Day 11 - A picutre of something you hate.

I WISH it was pictures of things you hate. OOOOOH boy id dive into this challenge like I was a navy seal. Hazlenut. I absolutely freaking HATE hazlenut. The nut itself. The nut by products. Nutella. Hazlenut flavored coffee. I HATE everything about that damn nut. Smelling the coffee gives me really bad headache. I cant walk into Tim Hortons or 7-11 because of it. If i do, im holding my nose. God forbid i consume it, it brings on nausea. So yea, NO DAMN HAZELNUT.

Day 10

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.

Aright.. This challenge is getting to be exasperating. I'm already bored. By messed up, does that mean crazy? Cuz I've done some crazy things. But with no particular person so that leads me to say that I do the crazy ish for dolo. LOL. I like to tip toe on the wild side from time to time.

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 9

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

The only one who has been there from jump. The one who kissed my booboos. The one who combed my hair and made me look like i have a home. The one who despite hardship still manages to do what she does, and well. The one who sent me cards freshman year to give me motivation when i was depressed. The one who listened to me cry and complain on the phone during school. The one who gave birth to me. One of the most awesome women in my life. My MOM

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 8

I almost let this one slip through my fingers. It's late. I'm kinda tired and I'm doing laundry.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

POSITIVITY MAN!!!!

Do you remember this vulture from the jungle book? Awesomeness.

The 30 Day Callenge - Day 7

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

There are only a few things that I couldn't live without. My family, my iPod and my phone. As much as I LOVE music and subsequently my iPod, my most treasured item is my family. Without them I wouldn't be the person I am today. My mom, my pop, my grannies, my aunts, my uncle, my siblings, my cousins and all of those who fall somewhere in between all of that.

No family is perfect. I have moments where I could just drop kick my brother, just to say the least. At the end of the day it boils down to me accepting my family for whatever faults they may have, and loving them for it. It builds character. So to you I present (many a picture, not just one) my family.

In no particular order:

Grandma, the almighty matriarch

Me, Tay, Frances

Rachael & I

Jozie & I

The Siblings & I

Gee & I

The Homettes Gab, Syd and I

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 6

Im back up to speed snitches!!!

No frilly intros, just today's challenge

Day 06 - A picture of a person you would love to trade places with for a day

Damn. I gotta actually THINK about this one. I see some of my friends / acquaintances doing things that I think would enjoy. Their life SEEMS fun, but image isnt everything so Im sure theres some major sacrifice along the way. Be it privacy, sanity or what have you. This challenge is a tossup, so for the hell of it I will just say.. Rihanna

Yea. IDK. Trading places would just put me well out of my current tax bracket. And into some hella snazzy clothes. Yea. Definite win. I was thinking about Beyonce but who am I fooling. I dont even like her.

Besides, I love love love Rihanna short hair cuts.

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 5

OK.. So I was kind of busy yesterday between work and chilling with Andrea and Alyssa after work. Two entries, same day. Day 5 and Im already slacking. I frown upon myself for such shennanigans.

Yesterday's challenge was:

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

TOO EASY!!! With that being said, I present to you

GRADUATION!!!!! Saturday May 9, 2009

University at Buffalo

Alumni Arena 12:30 PM

Five long grueling years of work celebrated over two days. This particular picture was taken at ALANA. In other words, the black graduation where we sit where we want (with our friends in other majors) and get our kente cloth sashes. Peep the short cut- I was friggidy fresh that day. Peep the orange tassel - that's for engineering majors. I remember it like it was yesterday. Goin to the salon to get my hair cut. Jumping with glee when my ex finally made it on campus. Drinking mimosas before ALANA. All too happy. I did it y'all! I did it! Just as I thought that I wasnt going to graduate and Dr. Human tried to play games with me like woman, just tell me if I passed your final so I know Im graduating. Thank you.

Brings a smile to my face. As well as an unshed tear. I miss UB and the people there. One thing for sure though, I DEFINITELY aint missing the cold.

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 4

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

Hold up. What kind of ambiguousness is this? A picture of my night? Ever. So. Vague.

I sat at my desk yesterday filling out some form for work when my blackberry buzzed. Oh goody, a new BBM. and it was from Greg, or Karate Kid as I call him from time to time. He greets me with his usual "Hello Ms. Huey" and proceeds to ask me to go to wild wings with him because he has a craving. I ask if he's pregnant, just because I'm an idiot. Sadly, had to cancel wine plans with AP to go out, but that bottle will be gone tonight. hoorah..

So Im sure you're wondering, well maybe you arent, why he calls me Ms. Huey . Due to the massive fro that I had prior to my reunion with the creamy crack,  I was lookin like the female Huey Freeman from The Boondocks. Similar attitude, just not as militant.  My fro is what drew him in. He comes to my office for an interview and a few days later we are on a date. Funny.

I digress. So we arrange to meet up at 7 at

Over MY 12 wings (because you know I am a fat ass) and a basket of wedges we sat and talked of new years goals/ resoltuions, work, companies that I should look into, how menacing my nails look. Just a myriad of topics. He's one of those people who know ALOT but isnt a jerk about it. Good night though. Never otherwise with him.

You know, just talkin about this night has me wanting some more wings. SMH

Allow me to reintroduce myself...

My name is not HOV. 2 points if you know the song reference.

I never fully introduced myself or my blog for that matter. You wanna know about me? Read my profile. You wanna know about my blog? Read it. My blog is as random as it gets. I cant tell you what I will be writing about from one day to the next. Why am i blogging? Because I want to. Who made you the blogging police? Besides, the voices in my head requested to be heard. HA

For this particular blog, let me start out by saying happy new year (5 days late.) I never been one to set resolutions because they are only kept for that first month of the year. However, I did absolutely decide on one thing - speaking it into existence, whatever it may be. I will accomplish whatever I put my mind to this year. These are things that I always wanted to do, I'm just backing it with way more positivity. The new year wasn't quite necessary for this change but it is a nice little kick start.

So here is my list:

2011 will be good

2011 will be prosperous

2011 will bring a better job and/ or career

2011 will bring a new love interest (I cant believe I wrote that.. HA)

2011 will be an enjoyable year for me

I REFUSE TO HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY

Im turning a quarter of a century this year. That is 25 years old for the slow folks. I feel that at this age I should have solidified what I am doin with my life. My arse is getting old!!! Thankfully I am not too confused about that. All I need is a career jumpstart and I swear to you that you will see me make some major moves. The world is not ready. *insert evil laugh*

With that being said, cheers to my first official post. YITTIDY!!!

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 3

Today's challenge is.... *Drumroll*

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

The Game

Laziness forbids me to list the actors.. more notably you would recognize Tia Mowry and Pooch Hall. No, Pooch is not his real name. He is the reason I started watching the show though. It is a spin off from Girlfriends. I tell you boy, that Kelsey Grammer knows what he is doing.

The Game will premier season 4 on BET on Jan 11, 2011 after about a year of being canceled on CW. I think it will be the negro channel's saving grace and also the only reason i might just watch TV once a week.

Now, if you do know me (which I doubt you do) you would know that I am not a big visual media person. The more correct image to post for this challenge would be a blank slate because I dont watch TV. However, this is perhaps the only show where I actually watched episodes faithfully, and if I missed it, Id watch it online.

But yea... another challenge done. SCHWING!

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 2

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been the closest with for the longest

Now, this proved to be a difficult one considering Ashley has been my bff since sixth grade. However, Eric I have known since 2nd and we are still friends and still close so I'm sorry bff, you have lost this battle. I still love you though :)

Eric and I in 1997 (5th Grade Graduation)

Eric and I in 2010 ( Sierra 23rd BDay BBQ)

Now granted we did fall off the radar between junior high and HS just because we went to different schools, but it never made our friendship crumble. Went to the Garden the other day with him actually. My boy Eric. Great person and a great friend.

And since this post was a close race, a pic of me n my BFF for honorable mention :)

The 30 Day Challenge - Day 1

So in one of my late night browsing sessions of facebook, i came across something called the 30 day challenge. Everyday is some new thing. So here's to starting the challenge.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts.

1 - I am the oldest of 3 children for my mother. Sis is 19, soon to be 20 and my bro is 13
2 - I am allergic to Little Debbie Oatmeal Cream pies
3 - I am a natural born citizen with a caribbean upbringing. Moms is Jamaican, pops is Grenadian
4 - I am the awesomest sign everrrrrr. Aquarius, of course. Jan 30th
5 - My favorite album is The Love Below by Andre 3000
6 - I don't like shell fish. No, you will not see me at China Buffet with a pound of crab legs on my plate.
7 - Not a big visual media person. Movies, TV, Videos. SN : Don't ever make visual media references to me because chances are I will not get them.
8 - I LOVE baked goods. Cake, cookies, cupcakes, bread, pastries, pies. You name it, chances are I'll eat it.
9 - As of now, I have 10 piercings and 8 tattoos. Maybe more to come.
10 - I have a high regard for family values. If you don't have that, I can't rock with you.