Day 23

You know, I thought that by having a mac i would be blogging more frequently... LIES. I spend more time playing with it than actual blogging. On top of that, I have been ridiculously busy. SO much has been going on with me. My days off no longer exist. Neither does my single life. By no means am I complaining about the change or the busy lifestyle I will be leading. I just hope that it doesnt interfere with my sleeping habits too much. With strong modification of my sleeping habits, I can get right That is, if Greg doesnt interrupt it. LOL.

Ive started reading again. The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo.. Thanks wife. I like it so far


On to the challenge

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

I like book because of the protagonist Holden Caulfield. I like how they describe Holden but you never really know what he looks like because the author maintained that ambiguity. I guessed him to be attractive because he got girls in the book.. he just didnt know how to keep them. I liked his attitude, although the cynicism and sarcasm might be a bit much for people. Here is one of my favorite excerpts

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"Life is a game, boy. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules."
"Yes sir. I know it is. I know it"
Game my ass. Some game. If you get on the side where all the hot-shots are, then it's a game, all right- I'll admit that. But if you get on the other side, where there arent any hot-shots, then what's a game about it? Nothing. No game.


Maybe I'll read it again soon

Side bar: i think my bf is awesome

Day 22

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

I wish that i could have pictures of something that was actually material. So I found a substitute picture. A pig in mud. I wish I were better at keeping things neat. If you ever see my room.. HOT MESS... Somehow i haven't broken my neck on anything as of yet. Knock on wood. I can clean thoroughly and it'l be really nice but give it a week and it looks like WW III.. Damn shame.

In other news...

I have a boyfriend... tada! Dating for a few months and now he's my whole bf... Greg... He's awesome.

More importantly, i am an intern at the brooklyn borough presidents office. its MY TIME.

i need a damn nap.

Checking a New Box

So I haven't blogged in a full week but I have more than enough good reason. Quite a bit has happened in the past week that didn't really allow me to sit down and blog. Work was busy and I was not in the mood to fight the desktop and it's possessed keyboard. But nonetheless, here I am. Blogging on my new MacBook Pro =D *SUPER CHEESE*

My 25th Birthday was last saturday. It's kind of hard to believe that I am a quarter of a century old. Some people are morbid about it but I actually embraced it. It's almost like a new beginning. For me anyway. Granted, I now check that 25- 30 Age box on applications but its much more than a box on a piece of paper. It's a state of mind.

I spent the past year reflecting on everything in my life. People, and my relationships with them. My past. My present. My future and how I can work to make things better. Thus far, they have been. I had a wonderful January. No exaggeration. Things are looking up for me. 2011 is all about good things.

And i will commence with my 30 Day Challenge

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Nothing. Everything that you experience in life is a lesson learned. Simple.

Day 20

Here I sit in the office. On 2.5 hours of sleep. I find that that doesn't quite qualify as sleep but more so a nap. Anyway, here I am. I figure I may as well do today's challenge while i am relatively coherent.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.

Anyone who knows me knows how much I love Ancient Egypt and things of, near, or relating to it. I think their history(that which is documented) is so rich (literally and figuratively). From an engineering / architectural standpoint I have an even deeper desire to visit.

Yo I need a nap. Like now. Damn you responsibilities! *Shakes fist*

Lost sleep was well worth it =)

Day 19

I frown upon myself. I haven't blogged in days. A bit too much going on in my life. Work. Friends. BIRTHDAY *Dancing smiley* But here I am, with a new entry. Yay! Along with a sore throat. Boo -__-


Day 19 - A picture of when you were little


Look at me!!! I look the same. Taller. Glasses. WAY more hair. LOL

Day 18

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

How do you take a picture of an insecurity? For me, I would have to say that it would be fear of inadequacy or constant comparison for lack of a better phrase. I only have an iPhone Blackberry up because those are constantly up for comparison. Funnily enough I own a BB, have an iPod touch so i see the desire in having an iPhone, but heavily leaning towards getting an android phone. I digress as usual...

Sometimes I feel like I am not good enough. I'm not attractive enough for men. Not smart enough to get those grades. Not good enough for this job. Not prepared enough to (insert activity.) Just. Not. Enough.

I know that i shouldn't feel like this. It's not a constant hovering cloud of insecurity, but it comes and goes. Granted I know that all the prior things that I have listed might just prompt "WTF is wrong with you" from my friends but it is the way that I feel. And I am allowed to feel, right? I have been doing it less and less though, thankfully. I realized that some things are just beyond my control contributing to why I feel LIKE I'm not good enough. Perhaps I haven't tapped into my full potential as of yet. One day soon though...

IN OTHER NEWS.....

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE WEEK!!!! YAZZZZZZ... Cant wait. Cake.Thai.Friends.Love. <3

My sister's birthday is tomorrow. Cousin's on Tuesday. It's all about Aquarius. We Rule.

I definitely just realized that I put cake before Thai. Epic fatness.

Day17

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

POSITIVITY!!!

Focusing on the good instead of the bad. Now, I never once claimed to be the sole keeper of pessimism. Harsh realist perhaps, as well as a cynic. But pessimist? NO. Neither am I miss mary sunshine. However, I decided as mentioned in prior entries that I would be more optimistic about things. (not in those words per se but general gist). I would see the glass as half full instead of half empty. It's the law of attraction. You get what you put out. Refusing to see the bad in things allows me to stay happy and keeps more good things coming my way. yeah i've been loaning money to some unsavory negros. MEH. I had it, its not making or breaking me. Karma for them later if its not returned, but i digress. I find that it is coming back to me tenfold anyway, just because i feel good about it. I feel good about everything. Work is never exciting, but guess what? I have a job to pay those horrible bills every month. Yay? LOL. My birthday is next week Sunday (1/30) and I will be turning 25. I am looking forward to it. I dont really pay much attention to age, more so the fact that my cake is going to be all sorts of awesomeness.

Positivity goes a long way. I'm just getting started.