No Pretty Ricky though. At 5 AM I was having a really dope conversation. Between lack of sobriety on his part and mostly fatigue on mine, I had quite the chat with this guy I met last night. I mean the time of this chat is neither here nor there (although I do find that the best conversations occur at ungodly hours of the day) but he made a rather valid statement. Your mid twenties are basically adult puberty.
I feel like as a 25 year old and perhaps other people within my age range go through what I have come to call a quarter life crisis. This falls between that time when you are not quite young as a 21 year old but not in your 30s where I feel that one should be formidably accomplished in life. I can not speak for others but I have had multiple occasions ( not often and not back to back) where I have questioned my purpose in life and what am I doing wrong to be where I am. I question (ed) what is it that makes me happy? What is success to me? How do I get there? So many questions and these are just to name a few. I found myself heavily disheartened by lack of job opportunities and lack of drive within myself. Saddened by the Catch 22 of employment. Saddened when I started to compare my status to others which is ultimately the worst thing to do. Discontent with oneself is a bitch.
I have moved past that for the most part and started working towards bettering myself as well as being content with self, which is no light feat. Got off my ass (and literally in one sense ) and got moving. Although I have fallen off the wagon of grad school I did start looking stuff up and I do have drafts of admissions essays. I started applying to jobs. I mean there aren't a lot but I did. I am just generally trying to work on me. Its in progress. Perpetually.
2012 will be quite the year considering I see a WHOLE lot of changes. I will be a better me. I promise you that.
Seemingly pointless blog.. But hey, Im blogging.
interesting thoughts. sorta similar to mines about how life goes
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