Happy MLK Jr Day... and then some.

I have to give credit to my friend Malcolm for asking why I didn't blog today. Funny that he mentioned it because I forgot. I had full intentions of blogging today. So much going on. So many things to be said. On a national holiday no less. Well, technically it is over but for the purpose of this blog, it is still MLK Jr Day.

I don't think much of the holiday. I didn't get it off and that is not the reason i don't think much of it. It more so boils down the fact that throughout elementary schooling (upwards to HS as well) they drill MLK into your head as damn near the sole and/ or pinnacle of the civil rights movement. Everyone knows about the "I Have a Dream Speech." I am not sure that people know about anything else he did, much less what he stood for aside from non- violence. I admit my ignorance. I learned something new about him today. Like many others I thought he was assassinated for his fight for racial equality. Partially true, yes. But more so his sentiment towards the Vietnam war. He was completely against it. Sooooo he got got. Sad really. And they say we have freedom of speech.  A disillusion of some sort.

So... Dannielle proceeds to watch a 40 minute clip of his Anti- War speech. Feeling like she should share her newfound knowledge, posts the link on her G+ feed. Only to be met with some angry Isrealite calling him a two bit nigger who sold his people out. Hitting me with some bible quote. Blah blah blah. See link below. Threw me off a bit, and by bit i mean not really. Blocked him from my profile and laughed at such sentiment all because i said miss me with your bible banter.

Angry Isrealite Response

Now don't get me wrong. I aint bashing anyone who is deeply religious. That's your life. Just miss me with bible quotes. I don't read it. I aint nearly religious. And although MLK Jr mentions God in his speeches quite often and follows His word, I actually don't put much thought to that. You can separate your religious thoughts from your political ones providing that you aren't close minded. People (like that angry isrealite) are so damn wrapped up in their religious matrix that they get blinded. Just miss me with it all together. Thanks in advance.

For entertainment purposes, but still related. The MLK Boondocks Episode. GREATNESS

WILL YOU IGNORANT NIGGAS PLEASE SHUT THE HELL UP?! (YouTube)

Anddddddd another tidbit of information. The X-Men character profiles of Professor X and Magneto were based off of MLK Jr and Malcolm X.  Makes sense now don't it? I am more along the lines of Malcolm X and his ideologies though. But white america just wasn't having that. 

Onto less dense issues....

Today was also Aaliyah's birthday. RIP. Beautiful girl taken before her time. Fairly decent singer but she was still a fool for hopping on that Cessna. Sorry. 

So.. How about an update on my love life or lack there of?

There was a dude I met on NYE and we have been talking via text often since then. We went to dinner sunday evening. Very casual. Nothing romantic. Not nearly flirtatious. Not spectacular. Not boring. Very middle of the road. I don't feel indifferent about him or the date so I guess we can hang out again. LOL. Space filler i suppose. I am not looking for a relationship or anything. I am just enjoying my life. No other major prospects. Just a few people looking to hop in the sack and I don't want that.  

My Birthday?

No plans. STILL.  All I been fucking doing is spending money.  Glasses that I pick up tomorrow. iPhone that I bought on Saturday. I still have more money to spend. Cake and a bag. If I even buy the bag.  Ugh. Tired of this. Someone spoil me for a change dammit!!!

And so ends this entry. I'm tired. My thoughts for the day have been purged. Maybe another blog will appear tomorrow. Let's gauge my laziness. LOL.

Unicorns

I'd like to think myself to be an attractive young lady capable of holding intelligible conversation. I know what I want in life for the most part. I know what I like and what I don't like. I have my head on my shoulders. I associate with people of similar characteristics. Why is it that when we go out with some men they are in shock and awe like they never met someone like us. A deer in headlights. Like we some damn mythical creature, hence Unicorns.

Unicorn Source

That's Twilight Sparkle by the way. I don't know why there is such surprise when some men meet us. Are we that damn rare? Should we be considered 1- mythical or 2- be put on the list of endangered species. My best friend said it best: beauty doesn't preclude intellect.  Im flattered that you that you find me amazing. I mean, after all, I am awesome. But seriously, I'm not the only one out there like this. Open your eyes. There are more.

In other news... IM GETTING OLD.. HAHA

Nah but for real tho... My birthday is in 3 weeks and I have no plans. It will fall into place I am sure but I did come to the conclusion that I just want material gifts this birthday. Not the usual me. But I want em! 

Someone buy me a Marc Jacobs bag! Please. =)

26 in 26

Days that is.  It's no major birthday like 16, 18, 21, or 25.  "Tired 26" as my sister said with regards to my getting a sheep cake for my birthday. Yes, I am ever so serious. I am still in the schematic design aspect of my cake. I don't plan on investing much in to celebrating my 26th year on this planet. By no means am I devaluing myself, I just can't be bothered with the she she fru fru hoopla of celebration. I just want a nice gift, intimate dinner(s) and a relatively smooth day. I ask for no more, no less.

You know, I didn't think that I would be here at this point in my life and I don't mean that I think I would be dead or anything like that. I just thought I would be in a different place with regards to a professional lifestyle. Time to change that. Go gung ho and set forth on a journey to REALLY better myself. Personally, I never invested much thought into anything romance related. I usually just swept that under the proverbial rug.

I'm beginning to realize that with age I am growing more sentimental as well as more intolerant of stupidity. Random, but just something I noticed.

Well, here's to a brief entry. My thoughts are clouded due to this cold. Sinus trouble, congestion, and a dry mouth like I been chewing on chalk.  Time to leave and head to this Piano lesson. Ode to joy.


Update 8:27

Postponed. Time clash.  Came home to drink some OJ.

Damn.. 2012 already?!

According to Mayan calendars the end of the world as we know it should be arriving shortly. At least I can say that I enjoyed my entrance into the new year.  Wasn't drunk. Didn't spend a lot of money and I was in good company. Even looked kinda cute.

 Jillian and myself

As I probably said earlier, I don't make resolutions only to break them in the first 3 months.  Perpetual growth. I am going to start learning how to play the piano though. Something new, not nearly a goal. 

I also crossed off a bucket list item. I saw New Edition in concert. *ALL SMILES* Even though I couldn't take Ralph home, I was very happy to experience something that I've been dreaming bout for as long as I can remember.

New Edition. Yes, all 6 of them.

And as if on cue, a cold for the new year as well. -_______________-  I currently sit here with a tissue stuffed up one nostril thats runny and congested. Ode to Joy.

I have nothing much else to say other than that I look forward to 2012 and whatever it may hold. New friends, new experiences, etc etc. With that being said, Happy New Year.

VOILA!

So I left with the post M_____ Christmas. I figured out why I was so goddamn miserable. I was lonely.
Shocker, no? Me. Lonely. One who loves silence and alone time. Lonely. I mean half my family was gone and that made for an EXTREMELY quiet christmas.  When I realized that I wasn't spending any kind of time with my friends either that made matters worse.  I did manage to get out on Boxing Day and that made me feel a whole lot better. I even gave the Stapleton clan some gifts. Mini Santa Claus of some sort.

If there was anything I learned from this holiday, I learned that it really aint shit without people you care about. I mean I knew that before but I didn't think it could be so damn painful. I didn't miss gifts. I never been the materialistic kind. I cherish friends and family for sentimental value. Not what they can provide for me physically. Don't get me wrong though, I do like gifts. Of the monetary kind. Or electronic. Or a good book. You get the point.

In other news,
End of the year is steadfast approaching. Thankfully. What a full year. What a fast year. Looking forward to seeing you 2012. You and I will be doing quite a bit this year.

I guess thats it. Back to Undun and my book.  I'll try and squeeze a blog before the year's end.

M________ Christmas

Insert the M word of your choice.  For me it may just be mundane. Melancholy. Miserable perhaps.  Not merry. And I find it ironic that as much as I like to get away from my family the holidays are pretty damn dry without them. Half my family is gone. Although I thoroughly enjoy the silence, it is still odd. No tree. A few jokes but nothing Christmas-y about today at all. Today was the first Christmas that I spent with minimal amount of relatives and no friends. I spent most of my day sleeping. I only got up to eat. Socialize a bit and took my ass right back to bed because there was nothing else to do. I got about 11 merry christmas texts, to all of which i replied same to you. I didn't say merry christmas to anyone except on twitter at the stroke of midnight. Im not feeling merry so i aint feigning like I am. I got one thing for christmas. A flask I asked for within my secret santa with friends. Ive made use of that. Blessed it with some Bacardi gold.

I think that that is about all of the joy I might have gotten this whole weekend. And it was in a container. Literally. 

Mom said something to me that threw me for a loop yesterday as I asked her if Domo went to Canada. Domo is my sisters boyfriend.  She replied of course emphatically. He is a part of the family. One day you will have a bf who will be just like that, and God help us all. Or rather, God help him. I just said thanks mom. You made me sound like a defect.  She asked me if I thought I wouldn't find someone like that. I said IDK. Im not looking. She said you don't have to look. She did apologize because that was never her intent to make me feel a way about it. Yet, and still I do.

So as I said, Ive spent most of my day sleeping and away from people in general. I sat at my kitchen table eating a late dinner watching favorite videos on YouTube.  The only holiday that I ever had a bf was when I was with Sean. And I brought him home to meet my mommy and my best friends and then  I went by him and I don't remember much aside from that. Ive always had family around and friends to bother on this day and this year it is so different. I know that I am a loner but I guess I have boxed myself in so much that I am now suffering from it. 

Im quite sure that me listening to the Carpenters isn't helping. 

Hope its a warm week. I have some running to do.

*Sigh*

5 O'Clock in the Morning....

No Pretty Ricky though. At 5 AM I was having a really dope conversation. Between lack of sobriety on his part and mostly fatigue on mine, I had quite the chat with this guy I met last night. I mean the time of this chat is neither here nor there (although I do find that the best conversations occur at ungodly hours of the day) but he made a rather valid statement. Your mid twenties are basically adult puberty.

I feel like as a 25 year old and perhaps other people within my age range go through what I have come to call a quarter life crisis. This falls between that time when you are not quite young as a 21 year old but not in your 30s where I feel that one should be formidably accomplished in life. I can not speak for others but I have had multiple occasions ( not often and not back to back) where I have questioned my purpose in life and what am I doing wrong to be where I am. I question (ed) what is it that makes me happy? What is success to me? How do I get there? So many questions and these are just to name a few. I found myself heavily disheartened by lack of job opportunities and lack of drive within myself. Saddened by the Catch 22 of employment. Saddened when I started to compare my status to others which is ultimately the worst thing to do. Discontent with oneself is a bitch.

I have moved past that for the most part and started working towards bettering myself as well as being content with self, which is no light feat. Got off my ass (and literally in one sense ) and got moving. Although I have fallen off the wagon of grad school I did start looking stuff up and I do have drafts of admissions essays. I started applying to jobs. I mean there aren't a lot but I did. I am just generally trying to work on me. Its in progress. Perpetually.

2012 will be quite the year considering I see a WHOLE lot of changes. I will be a better me. I promise you that.


Seemingly pointless blog.. But hey, Im blogging.